Sunday, January 12, 2014

Bargaining by her bedside .


Some bargains are worth the barter ...



Her eyes tell me that she can make it ... 
The doctor's tone tends to disagree .. 
... I stand silent, a few feet away ... 
... the wedding ring, luster-less on my finger 

Those X-rays .. their images utterly bleak... 
confirming the worst ..of that which we may not speak 

She's nothing but bones & a bald head .. .. 
Her beauty much more underneath ... 
She then slowly whispers my name ... 
'I have made peace, my love ... do the same' 

My eyes only on her, my lovely lady on the bed ..... 
My heart sinking in despair .. those final words she said... 
I fight furiously with her ...for me & our kids ... 
She smiles & nods .. tears streaming down her face ... 

My words seem desperate, so do any promise that I make ... 
The selling of all my property .. or extra shifts I intend to take. 

I spend that night with you ..... 
the darkest hours of my life ..... 
The morning brings in a conclusion .... 
the machines eerily silent on my wife..... 

It's been 16 years past that fateful night ..... 
Our beautiful daughter's about to be with her man ... 
her walk with me to the aisle so graceful ... her face so much like yours .. 
She misses you very much, I know ... I tried as hard as I could do ... 

and then she pauses ... looks at me in the eye. 
I swear I see you .. her voice , yours .. without doubt ... 
She embraces me warmly , her words soothen my soul 
' You did good, daddy .. you did good. Mom would be so proud !!!'